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We're Back In The Saddle Again!
For two days, I have wanted to write something about my experience at the retreat. I have been trying to pick out one thing to talk about and having a terrible time trying to decide on a topic. Today at lunch it hit me…the reason I can’t pick just one is because the entire retreat and everything that happened, was the catalyst for the most meaningful thing that came from it.
From the time we left our house in the very early hours of Day 1, I could feel Sir getting into his head-space. He was being more assertive than the past few months and taking control of every situation. I started to instantly feel like I was melting into my mind-set as well. With every day and every event that followed, his Dom showed up more and more…I didn’t realize just how much I missed my Dom until he came back fully. It was refreshing to have the freedom to just be us, joke with others about kinky activities, discuss issues that we all deal with in our dynamic and learn new things from others. I know what you are thinking…isn’t that what we do here? Yes, of course, but being in person was extremely different. It has been a long while since I’ve felt so comfortable in my submission and I saw in my Sir’s eyes that he was feeling the same way about his Dominance and being my Dom. We were feeding each other again. By the end of the weekend, I didn’t want to leave. I hit a point where I was going to either drop to the floor and protest leaving or just run out of the house and get it over with…I ran, lol. As much as it was the fact that I didn’t want the fun to end and to leave everyone, I was scared that when we got home, we would slowly lose what we both had been missing so badly…it felt like we were D|s-M “newlyweds” again and I desperately didn’t want that feeling to end when we got home and got back into our normal routine.
Our dynamic has grown and we are BACK IN MIND SET more than ever before. It was the push we needed to fully re-commit to our dynamic. After we got home, Sir did some things that showed me he was still in mindset. Although one was more of a correction, it was still a total turn on the way he did it. I left the room (keep in mind, I just had a CORRECTION) smiling to myself and so happy that he was taking the action that he felt he needed to in order to keep continuing to grow in our dynamic. I have asked that every day I get home, my collars be switch out to help me transition a little better…and it is working like a charm. A little ritual that signifies the power exchange when I come in the door. I am kneeling for him more regularly again and he is giving me tasks again…he gave me a really fun one yesterday via a text message that said he didn’t care how, but I was to masturbate and have one orgasm before I went to work! YES, SIR!
And this is why I am having a hard time picking just one experience or challenge…it wasn’t just one thing that did this for my Sir and I. It was everything and everyone involved. So thank you for that!
Smooches,
V - 2 Replies
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Dear V,
Thank you so much for sharing your feelings from the retreat. It was a magical time! I am so happy for you and your Sir for reconnecting and keeping up the momentum from the retreat.
Warmly,
Belle -
You and Mr.Cain are amazing! Even through your own struggles you are still inspiring others.
😘
Kleine
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