I wanted to share my journey and how I got here… If one other woman reads this page and it makes her feel like it’s alright to want this dynamic with her husband then it’s done its job.
Where did I start? Well, like many of you I read a book called “Fifty Shades of Grey”. I ate up every word. I chewed on it, swallowed it and absorbed every word. Quickly, I finished the whole trilogy. As I read about Anastasia and Christian’s communication through their sexual power exchange. It spoke to me deeply. My head was spinning with ideas. I am a designer by trade so I ran with it. Not only did I want the sexuality, the scenes, I wanted the honest communication. Honesty with myself and my husband. First of all, let me put it out there, I loved my husband and children very much. I needed to be honest about what I wanted in my life. Things change as life goes by. I had changed.
In our early twenties, my husband put me on a pedestal so high I couldn’t see the ground. By our mid-twenties, we had our first child. Thirty, our second child came along. We were going through the motions of creating and cultivating the “perfect family.” What society deems acceptable. I had let go of me, the “I”. I was mom and part of a family. I became frustrated and very lonely even when my husband was home. Even if we separated I would have always loved my husband as we always had the something others do not. I began to feel like time was running out. I deserved more, I was becoming an individual again. I didn’t want to waste any more time just getting by with a mediocre marriage. I wanted my soul mate. Waking up, not longer feeling that spark, I needed to go after what was in my heart. Make the most of the time we still have, make it MORE.
Little Kaninchen began blogging as “Bedroom Submissive”. When she began blogging her intention was to be submissive only in the bedroom. I blogged for me and to journal my dynamic.
Today, I have found most importantly myself in my submission, found the Dominant in my husband. Now I have found subMrs™, the community, the D|s-M Method and Marriage’s Sexiest Secret. I am now a Certified Intimacy Life & Energy Coach. I mentor and coach subMrs and other women daily on how to improve their marital intimacy.
I want to yell it from the rooftops OUR METHOD, MARRIAGE’S SEXIEST SECRET … IS MARITAL MAGIC!!!!!