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Punishment Spanking – lesson learned-long
I feel like Master and I have come so far since my first day on this site. He is really trying to make our D|s-M relationship work both in the bedroom and in everyday life. He went from not being sure about wanting it 24/7 to saying he doesn’t care who knows and wants me to call him Master even around other people (not in front of our adult kids though.) I love spankings and Master incorporates them into play all the time but we started talking about punishment spankings. Master first said I never did anything wrong. I really think the issue is, Master doesn’t know all of the basics of D/s yet so I know I’m doing things that I shouldn’t but he doesn’t. I try not to but sometimes, they just pop up. Then I feel super guilty and in the past he always seemed to either let them go or say it’s ok. So, the other night we were starting to play and Master said he wanted to shoot his cum from my pussy to my face and I better take my nightie off because there is no cumming on my clothes unless it’s in my panties for me to wear all day. Well of course I ignored him because as a lot of you know, I am very self- conscience of my weight. I just figured he would either make sure nothing got on my clothes or not say anything. I was wrong. He did just as he said and cum was all over my nightie. He told me I was in trouble and asked what I did wrong. I told him, I got cum on my nightie. Then he told me to flip over on my stomach and he proceeded to spank me, telling me that the next time he wanted to cum on me I would take off all my clothes, not be embarrassed (then he changed that to I wouldn’t show any embarrassment) and I would say, “Master, here is my body for you to cum on.” Wow, I did not know that was going to happen! I was in tears. I apologized and he made me repeat what I was to do next time. So the next evening. Master told me to get ready for him by being on the bed on my knees with my face down on the bed and he would be up in about 10 minutes. I got up on the bed just like he said. I was wearing a t-shirt but nothing else. I thought to myself that I could just stay like that and if he wanted to cum on me then I would take off my shirt and repeat what he had told me to say. As I was in position, I thought “what am I doing, what right do I have to keep Master from any part of me? I wanted this, asked for it, pushed him and now I’m balking because I don’t like the way I look.” I realized right then that I don’t have to like anything, if Master doesn’t want to do something he won’t do it, if he tells me to do something it’s because he likes it and my contentment comes form pleasing him. So, I sucked up my courage and took off my t-shirt. I stayed in position and when Master walking in the room, he said, “Oh Girl, how beautiful.” I said, “Master, here is my body for you to cum on.” Then he said my favorite words in the whole world – “Good Girl.”
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Hisgirl,
Thank you for sharing your story with us! That is amazing that you came to the realization that your Sir loves you and your body for you. You are perfect to him. It seemed that it came to him as something that he needed to be able to do and it was something that you needed as well. You and your Master are making progress. 🙂 Take this lesson you have learned and keep moving forward. Remember to be patient with your Master!
Much Love,
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Thank you Luna! I draw so much courage from all of you on here. You all are truly a blessing to me.
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Your welcome!! We are all here to sub-port one another! That is what makes this site so great!
Luna
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Hisgirl you have learned such a valuable lesson, good for you! It’s easy to submit when everything is going our way but true submission comes when we have to do something that we are uncomfortable with or pushes our limits in some way. I remember when I learned that lesson was when I was angry with Wolf and I did my daily tasks anyway. Later I realized that what I felt then was true submission.
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Thanks Pearl. It was a very eye opening experience.
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