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Open Your Eyes!
For the longest time, I have quietly struggled with how I now view my body.
I was once this lean, muscular, perky breasted girl.
I was SEXY as hell and knew it.
After giving birth twice, nursing two babies and admittedly allowing many other things get in the way of “working out”, my body just is not what it once was.
I have a woman’s body now, not a girl’s, I have been told.
That didn’t change what I thought I saw in the mirror every day.
I let it turn me into the woman who always wants the lights off.
Or the woman who would always keep my eyes closed so that I could keep a mental image of that sexy as hell girl in my head, just so that I could feel better about being seen naked…The other night my Dom/husband told me to get in front of the mirror.
He whispered in my ear, “Open your eyes and don’t you dare close them.”
I opened my eyes, looked at our reflection and saw…….
Our bodies mingling, entwining, swaying.I didn’t see what I had been trying to keep hidden for so long.
I did see what I had been denying myself for so long.
I did see that look in His eyes.
I felt SEXY as hell once again.
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V – Aren’t our partners amazing? They see the beauty to which we so often blind ourselves. I’m so happy that your Sir did this for you, helped you see yourself through his eyes. You are a sexy lady!
I’ve always been short, fat, 4-eyed, plain, pear shaped. When we started getting serious my husband (then boyfriend) told me I was beautiful. He said not model or movie star beautiful, but real beautiful, curvy beautiful, freckle beautiful, fit in his arms perfectly beautiful, shy eyed beautiful, radiant smile beautiful. And super sexy can’t keep his eyes or hands off me beautiful.
I had no reservations on our wedding night, I’ve never wanted to keep the lights off. I won’t change in front of other women at a gym. I haven’t worn a swim suit in years. But even through my weight fluctuations, every time he looks at me I feel his desire, his love for me and for my body, the body that belongs to him, to tend him, serve him, pleasure him, please him. When he looks at me I am beautiful, I am SEXY and I know it!
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That’s where I want to be! Sir has given me an extreme confidence boost recently but I still don’t see myself as he sees me. To him I’m perfectly beautiful and sexy. One day I hope to see myself through his eyes.
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soumis,
This is the one I was trying to find for you the other day when we all were discussing that. It is an older post, but it reminds me of that night and what an impact it made on how I see myself. You’ll get there lady, I just know it!
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I still struggle with this and my Sir tries to help often…telling me to look, watch, etc…but it’s still a struggle. Daytime and lights on, I am good with…now…but that took some time. So I imagine, the whole “watching” thing will take time too. You ladies are all inspirational!
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great job V :-))
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Bliss, Your amazing ! It was way COOL to meet you in VEGAS ! Your beautiful, sexy HOTT !!!
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I’m glad you found it V. This reassures me even though I’m not where id like to be now with how I feel. I CAN and WILL be there one day.
Beth thank you for commenting too! It really helps to see other ladies that have felt the way I do embrace their bodies they way they are.
I’m working on it a lot and Sir is SUPER supportive and encouraging. And yall ladies have been super awesome too! -
This made me cry…but maybe i’m just mushy lol Thanks for sharing Veruca and everyone else on this post 🙂 we’re working on this…being/feeling beautiful thing…i haven’t worked myself up to watching it live but Sir has been taking pictures so I can see myself through Sir’s eyes…i love it so far! My new favorites are right after the cropping he took some pictures..i could see all of Sir’s marks on me…Sir usually deletes them right away just in case, but I’m pretty sure he kept those lol
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I know how it feels to see myself as less then what my Sir says, even after 18yrs married. Now add breast cancer to it and you’d think things might change. But they don’t and I see the love and admiration in his eyes and feel it in his words. I am still a work in progress but at least there’s progress. Thank you everyone for all the previous comments I realize more and more that I’m not alone!
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You are most definitely not alone.
The mirror scene (we were not doing the mirror scene during this, but we have) and body exploration exercise are two very emotional but powerful tools to help you see your beauty, sexiness and worth through your Sir’s eyes.
It’s so important that we realize how sexy we are to them! How beautiful they see us as! Then we can be proud when we are made physically vulnerable by them and not be embarrassed….then we can really let go.
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I really get this post and am so glad someone put it out again! After 19 years and 2 kids my body is far from what is was when I met my husband at 14. Stretch marks a few extra pounds and breastfeeding both my kids has left me in the same place. I don’t recognize the body I see but my hus/dom does. He shows me in so many ways that to him I am still sexy. In turn that makes me believe it and so my confidence is coming back. I still continue to work on my body for me but I no longer worry that he sees anything different. I just want to regain my strength!
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I relate to this SO much, V! Thank you for sharing this!! Gave me goosebumps and smiles. 🙂
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