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Now what
In the last 3 months, my life has been turned on its ear. You all know I struggle with OCD. One of the reasons D/s works so well for us is my love of structure, rules, and the fun stuff too! So many things happened from loss of loved ones, marriages falling apart (not mine), health issues school, kids…it was all I could do to stay afloat. I leaned on my Sir as much as I could, again prior to D/s I wouldn’t have at all and would have gone nutty! But I began to lean less and less because in my mind I was not being what he needed as a submissive. I was so broken, that surely my pieces of submission were worth nothing to him. Instead of communicating this to Sir, I put it in the box with all the rest of my grief and sorrow. I have made a mess of our dynamic, the dynamic we worked so hard for. Sir maintains that we are righting the ship, he is so kind and loving. He has adjusted rules and protocols to fit the things I can physically do these days. He has gotten really creative with playtime. He is fighting for our dynamic and I want to fight too. Now what…
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You’ve already identified it jr. You adjust to where you are. You work to get back on track. Life will happen and the lows go with the highs. If you don’t get knocked down you don’t know how to get back up. As you come out of it you can better see what you can do differently next time. Unfortunately there will be a next time but then you will realize it and can make your corrections sooner.
You will rebuild stronger – it’s just that damn p word. 😉
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Oh JR, You have the tools.. You have to recommit to one another and discuss where you both want to go in your D/s… Discuss all those things get raw and real and submitting to him and letting him take things from you and break them down… That’s a good thing. A good reset spanking may help as well… have fun with it….D/s-M is about enjoying one another. I always am here for you… Much luv and subport!
LK
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Juliet Rose – My heart goes out to you. I couple of years ago my husband and I went through a very difficult period in life. All was good in our marriage but everything outside of that felt like chaos. We were both so overwhelm and overburdened. We didn’t want to add to our partner’s load so we basically stopped talking. Communication has always been one of the best things about our marriage and we were isolating ourselves from each other. Then we found D/s with the emphasis on communication. We started talking and discovered by sharing our heartaches we were able to help each other carry the load and both our loads were lighter because of it.
You have been derailed by life. It will take time to get the train back on the tracks and moving. But working with your Sir the two of you can do it. You are stronger together than as individuals. He is willing and wanting to help. You have the desire, let him lead you; let him show you how to put the train back on track, how to right the ship. You don’t have to do it alone, he will be right there with you.
I have depression and anxiety, and I rely on my husband so much to help keep me sane. He does it willingly because he loves me and I do my best to support him in every way I can. And you are not alone, you have your Sir, and you have us. Know that you are a wonderful and amazing lady. You can do this, especially with your Sir to help you.
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Hugs,
Beth -
I can relate to feeling things have gotten off course. Life can happen for anyone that way and it is hard to hold to your own center and stay the course.
How is it going with putting things back in line?
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