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I did it!
So, last evening I was reading everyone’s posts about Formal Acceptance. I loved reading all of the stories and the great responses the subs were getting from their Sirs. But to be honest, I was terrified of doing it myself. So many issues were running through my head. First, and really my biggest issue is my body. I have lost a lot of weight over the past year but I have a lot still to go. The thought of being completely naked on my knees in front of Sir was making me want to crawl under a rug. Sir and I have been married a long time but I’ve never been comfortable naked. Then I read all of the subs on here feeling sexy when they are doing FA and I want to cry. But I also really wanted this and needed to do it. I needed to know for sure if he was “all in” and I don’t want him to miss out on all of the aspects of D/s|M because of my hang ups. So when he went into the bathroom, I went into the bedroom and was standing there waiting for him. When he came into the bedroom Sir thought I was just waiting there because he was going to take a shower and after his showers I have been doing the BJ challenge. So anyways… I was standing there and Sir comes in and says; “I don’t want you to be on your knees waiting for me.” so of course, I start to think the worst but then I just ask him why. Sir says he doesn’t want me to feel like I have to but if it makes me happy I can. I tell Sir that it does make me happy but if it doesn’t make him happy then I won’t do it. Sir then says, Oh it makes me happy but I just want to make sure you want it. I told Sir, I do want to do it. Sir then went into the bathroom to shower and I wait on my knees with my robe on but not tied. When Sir is done he comes in to the bedroom and I ask him if he would sit on the bed so I could ask him something. He says yes and sits down. When he does I take a deep breath and slip my robe off my shoulders. I then try to talk and of course start crying (I am so nervous). Sir just rubs my arm and asks me if I’m ok. I tell him that I’m ok. I then go on to say that I know he is more of an “actions speak louder than words person” and that over the past few weeks he has shown me how he feels about this lifestyle but I want him to understand that I want this fully, with all the protocols, and rituals, and everything that goes along with it. I then looked up at him and said Sir, I want to formally ask you to be my Dominant, to guide me and teach me as we walk through this life. Sir took my chin and said, Girl, I would love too. He gave me a sweet kiss and my heart was full.
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