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Everything I dreamed of and MORE!
First of all I just want to say DREAMS DO COME TRUE!!!
Pearl challenged us to write about the gathering in the form and I gladly accepted because it was one of the most amazing experiences that life has ever brought to me. As soon as I saw it was posted to reserve your tickets I immediately brought it to König. I believed fully heartedly from the beginning that the gathering would be the place of astronomical growth in our dynamic. I have the time to research and read but my Dom does not. I was lucky that he was willing to take a leap of faith with me. Once we got there it was everything that I had dreamed of. Everyone was just as they had been on chat, loving and sub-portive! What a feeling it was to be totally immersed in D/s-M. Seeing all the lovely subs with their collars and cuffs with there Doms standing tall by their side. You could feel the warmth when you walked into any room. (And not just for the heat lol)
Over the course of the retreat I watch my Dom feel more comfortable in his role. As he become more comfortable in his Dom role so did I as his submissive. We talk about “the circle” of feeding one another. How you feed his Dom and he will feed you submission. At the retreat I not only got to witness it with others but experience it for myself on a level I had never felt before. A devious, playful side of König came out that I had never seen.
Making plans for the retreat I was focused on how much my Dom “needed” to learn. Thinking that he was the one that was going to walk away with the biggest lesson. I was so wrong. He is all Dom! I just have to let go and let him lead. I struggle with filling my head with negative thoughts about his affection for me. But the night I was to be his slave my eyes were opened. We were not allowed to eat unless we were being fed from our Doms hands. While some subbies were having to make eyes to get a bite, I was being overly stuffed! I was his slave, but I had his undivided attention. His eyes were on every move I made even while he had casual conversation with the other Doms. After the retreat was over and we were back at home I had some time to reflect. That is when I had this realization that it’s still me holding us back. I have to let go of my fears and personal insecurities. I have to TRUST in my Dom fully. Especially his love and devotion. Because after the gathering I no longer can even try to deny it. His love runs deep. And he is my Dominant in every sense of the word. He has won my submission 1000x over!
We are full steam ahead! With all kinds of new ideas to add to our dynamic! Thank you all for such an amazing experience!
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I have had realizations like yours several times during the last 18 months or so. Some were easy to deal with and some almost took me to my knees. Letting go is so easy to say and so very hard to do. It is also something that has to be done often. Every morning remind yourself that today I’m going to let go of all the “stuff” and let my Sir deal with it.
You got this!
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Kleine, that is beautiful. Brought me to tears!
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