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Coming Into Our Own
At the beginning of D/s-M I was running. Constantly tripping on my own two feet. Looking back at my Sir with frustration that he couldn’t keep up my pace. I wanted it all right then. Lucky for me my Sir kept helping me back up. Things still aren’t as smooth as we want them to be but progress is being made.
Since we started D/s-M I rarely use his name. Most of the time it is Sir or Daddy depending on the mood. This has been pretty easy for me. Being that I was raised in the South saying “Sir” was something I was already accustomed to. Then last week I was totally off my game from being sick and no play time or real structure, I wasn’t being very submissive. Plain bratty really, but honestly it wasn’t on purpose. I’m not nice when I am tired. My Sir knows this all too well and wasn’t being too harsh. Actually I thought he was letting me get away with what I wanted until I noticed he kept saying “what was that?” or “huh?” when I would say something to him or answer him. A little slow at times I was getting ill… can he seriously not hear me. So the next time I walked to him to answer. Sure enough he does it again, but this time I can see his face. He had heard me the first time every time but I had failed at addressing him respectfully. The look on his face told me all I had been missing. Then when I realized what I had been doing I apologized immediately and thanked him for his consistency. I had done that one other time awhile ago but more on purpose and he didn’t seem to catch it or care. So for him to Dom up this time and keep me in check was a big moment for me. His correction help feed my submissive but it also help feed our dynamic as a whole knowing that now he expects to be addressed a certain way. HE REALLY WANTS THIS TOO! That is something I am always looking for reassurance for and words don’t always do it for me. I want to SEE how much you want it.
This is a totally separate moment that was more of a personal struggle. My first instinct is to get mad to protect myself from my true feelings. Sir and I are getting ready to build a house. My family wants to give us an acre of land but my Sir wants more. I don’t want to go into that much debt building our first house. As you can see we aren’t agreeing. Being stubborn I start to shut down and get angry. I yell and tell him what I am not going to do before I walk away. Usually I will go find something to get my hands busy so my mind can cool down. But this time I paced. That was not what I wanted to happen. I was not angry why did I yell? He had not said anything wrong. What was wrong with me? Why did I just treat my Sir like that? He was just trying to talk to me. My heart sank and my chest got heavy. I had to face him. I had to own what had happened. Used to I would stay angry till I got my way. I didn’t want MY way. I wanted OUR way. I walked to where he stood to hit my knees and bowed my head. I apologized for the complete disrespect and totally not listening to a word he was saying. He lifted me up, kissed my forehead, and hugged me tight. As hard as it was going to him with my true feeling unmasked I felt a 100x better. What usually would have been like a 4 hour fight was over in about 15 mins and we moved on with our day. He loves me mistakes and all.
To sum it all up my Sir is finding his dominance and I am finding my submission. Patience and communication being our greatest tools. D/s-M has shown me a light I had been looking for for so long. 6 months ago already seems like a lifetime ago lol. Fantasies are real and dreams do come true.
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Amazing examples, Kleine! Thank you for sharing that with us. I’m right there with you – I need to SEE and feel that he is in this with me and when I do it’s magic. Love the phrase “Dom up” hahah
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