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Banana Pudding and Self Reflection
Ok, so I was grocery shopping today and started thinking about LK’s dessert challenge yesterday. “Make your Sir’s favorite cake.” I had to really think about that because we don’t really do sweets that much. I was still thinking about it this morning while shopping…and it hit me what is at least meaningful to him, banana pudding. Not just any banana pudding mind you, banana pudding like him mom made with a made from scratch custard pudding. And I almost started crying right there in the middle of the grocery store as I realized how selfish I’ve been over the years.
You need the backstory to understand fully. In trying to impress my new husband over 30 years ago I made him a banana pudding like I was taught, using instant vanilla pudding. Sir, being the young husband that he was, said, this is nice but not like my mom makes. I’m sure y’all can understand how hurt I was at that. I let it go but I never made banana pudding again, ever.
It occurred to me today, in the middle of the grocery store, how completely selfish I have been. If you asked Wolf he would tell you that it is not a big deal, it’s just a dessert, but I think my fellow subbies will understand what I felt in that moment. I’m beginning to hate introspection. But Sir will get a good banana pudding out of it! - 5 Replies
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Mrs. BlueEyes,
Yes!!! This is why I put these tasks out. I don’t expect most subMrs. to have something so impactful but over time giving these out I do watch as some subs do have these epiphanies. Something like banana pudding makes you think about your own selfishness or past behaviors. (Not saying that was your case.) You going past yourself and giving him something that he enjoys that may not be your favorite or holds some hard feeling but going past that and giving him that pudding…… Hooray, for you! You get the GOLDEN PENIS AWARD today!
I would say mission accomplished!
Congrats! LK -
The pudding is made and it will bra surprise for Wolf tonight. I will let y’all know the outcome tomorrow.
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so insightful..
hugs to you, my dear!
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Truly a beautiful post. It reminds us that not everything we do needs to be a grand gesture. It can be the little things that sustain us. The look on your face when you finally make that delicious banana pudding will be a thing of joy and beauty for both of you.
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I finished the pudding and sent Sir to our bedroom and told him I had a surprise for him. I also told him to put on a blindfold. I filled a small bowl full of still warm banana pudding, just like him mom used to make. I walked into our bedroom and crawled into his lap and told him basically what I wrote in the original post and apologized for not ever cooking one of his favorite desserts. I took off the blindfold and Wold took the bowl with quiet reverence, tasted it and closed his eyes. He thanked me for doing that for him and then finished off that bowl and another before the night was through. At one point he told me not to be too hard on myself that he had messed up plenty over the years. I was actually ready for this response and told him that his mistakes were not my responsibility to fix but mine were. I don’t know what the next lesson will be but bring it on!
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