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Starting Over….
Starting over….after a lot of heavy things happening lately and some major realizations Sir says we are starting over. Over the past summer I almost lost my life due to some health issues with my heart. Before then it was my gall bladder and the Drs kept putting me on meds and more meds. It was gradual and I didn’t realize what was happening until it was almost to late. I had a horrible side effect with the meds, 4 of them where on the suicidal warning list and we had no idea. I tried to kill myself. Sir and my friend figured it out and stopped me, that and my high blood pressure saved my life, and boy am I ever thankful for that because I don’t want to die. I find it scary and confusing how such a reaction can happen, but now that I am off all but one med that is not on the warning list, things are normalizing again.
During all of the craziness of that day I did two things that Sir told me about and that have changed our future. One I threw my wedding rings and ripped my collar off and two he spanked me. He said when I grabbed and my collar he realized what it actually ment to him. He admitted to “going through the motions” at times. He admitted to wanting more. He said we are starting over and I am thrilled to be following him. I hate that something so scary brought this change on and that it happened to begin with. I am scared to take any med now and not sure I will ever get over that. However mostly I am thankful. I am thankful he stopped me. I am thankful to be his. I am thankful to be alive.
So we are starting over…
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I’m sorry that it took something so drastic to get you back on track but sometimes that is what needs to happen for us to realize just how much we want something. Sounds like you better hold on for the ride!
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I had at one point thought starting over was failing but I know see that it not that at all but actually a sign of growth. We have downtime once a week now and things have never been better. Sir is taking it slowly and I still find myself wanting to run but now I am trusting Sir to set our pace. The biggest challenge is dealing with all of the ailments that the meds had been helping with and finding other ways to help those but we are making progress.
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Wow SonJouet, I do not even know what to say. What you have been through…. This lifestyle has saved so many marriages and yes even individual people. We are all so thankfully for and to LK and Mr. Fox! The tools they have set out there for us are so helpful! Please keep us posted. Thank you for sharing your story!
Much Love – Blossom.
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We had to start over due to illness also. I also had very negative reactions to the pharmaceuticals the doctors gave me. Once I got past all that and things settled down and I was past all the elation that I was absolutely going to be okay my Sir and I realized there was nothing holding us back and not only did we start over but we picked up exactly where we left off. What a gift! D/s is so much more fun this time around! Good luck with your journey and congratulations on getting your health back. Hugs
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So it has been a month since starting anew…..Sir has been amazing I love the change that I see in him and the growth of his dominate side daily. He is noticing things he never did before and really making me feel protected. I am trying to make sure that I am making sure he knows how much I appreciate him as well. <font face=”inherit”>Last night we went on a date for the first time in months and it was so amazing..slow and steady we grown each day with a step backwards here and there. </font>
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