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Real Life Struggle
I have bipolar disorder and have been dx for 3 years. 3 years of trying different meds(that was fun!), choosing to self check into a mental health ward for 3 days and finally a specialty treatment center for 6 weeks, and still trying to work and be wife,mom,sister,friend while riding those mood swings.
As many of my partners in this disorder, we resist taking meds at times, hoping that we will be ok without it, fearing we have slowed down our brain too much, and missing those manic moments where ideas and creativity blossom. And sleep evades us.
My Sir has lived with me for 17 years and knows my ups and downs so very well. He knows that I have gone weeks with skipping meds and then tearfully admitting it when I let the world spin for too long and I crash. He knew I needed to be responsible for taking my own meds. So we started with me laying out my night/day doses so he could see they were taken. Then we moved to just him asking me, if I hesitated, he knew that he had to get stern with me. With every set back, he would patiently explain for the millionth time why I needed to take those pills. How I was free to change my dosage as soon as I saw my doctor next but I Could not experiment myself. Finally we are at a place where I am able to tell him when I start have those thoughts of cutting back…all I have to do is voice it and he goes back checking in with me to make sure I am following doctor orders.
Last night, I was tired and for some reason the pharmacy wasn’t going to fill a med order without a new script. I knew I just needed to ask for his help, admit that I was not going to make all the phone calls to get it figured it out. He listened and told me we would work on that tomorrow and then put me in the shower and into bed. We all need an advocate in life, someone who is compassionate yet doesn’t let us get by with things. Walks besides us and take the lead in areas where we struggle to manage.
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Cherished, you are blessed to have a Dom so devoted to your health and well being that really understands you on a sub level.
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