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Lessons from a submissive heart
Well, it happened again. Another lesson on submission when I was least expecting it. Yesterday was a normal Sunday for us. Church, then lunch out with the kids. Several years ago I had a lapband and lost 50 lbs. I’m doing great but sometimes eating can be a challenge. Yesterday was one of those days. Everyone was finished except me and the next thing I knew Sir and the kids were cleaning up the table. (We were at a self serve restaurant.) Then the kids got up and started wandering around then hovering over me. I apologized for eating so slow then finally just threw my remaining lunch away. I was so very angry but said nothing. When we got home I told Sir how upset I was but he didn’t seem to get it at all. I fumed for awhile and then got to work on a project. I have a daily task that I must complete every day but it was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. After some contemplation I finally decided that if I wanted this lifestyle, I wanted it all of the time, not just when I felt like it. So with a less than happy but submissive heart I knelt before Sir, pulled down is jeans and gave him the best BJ he had ever had. Afterward, I laid my head in his lap and continued to play with him. He finally asked if I was OK and I told him I was still upset about how lunch went. He apologized and said he could have handled the situation better. That’s all I wanted, my feelings acknowledged.
I also got a wonderful reward for fulfilling my daily duty so well. So, submission even when you don’t “feel” like it is still a good idea.
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