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Home Again
“I didn’t know how far I’d gone until you brought me back” those were the words I cried into Sir’s chest. We had fallen victim to “life getting in the way”. The kids had been sick, we had house guests, social events, school, activities, and everything else that comes along with life seem to happen all at once. Downtime existed in name only, kneeling was gone, maintenance spankings weren’t possible, sex was at an all-time low…things were looking bad. The tricky part was that it seemed we were doing great. In the midst of all this, I allowed my DOM to navigate the stormy seas. When he felt I was unraveling, he would redirect me, and guide me to calmer waters. Prior to D/s these events would have caused an EPIC meltdown. But we handled together and well! Hooray for D/s!!! The only problem was we were so tired physically and emotionally that we didn’t take the time to restore the dynamic that was keeping us afloat. I made excuses, and he allowed me to. Instead of using our down time to communicate our feelings and needs, we used it to recap the days events and plan whatever was next. Instead of taking time to make sure we fed each other and our dynamic properly, we assumed that our previous efforts were enough to sustain us. That couldn’t have been more wrong. D/s is a living breathing organism it needs to be fed, it needs to be cuddled and loved, it needs attention all the time. It is an amazing tool to have at your disposal, but if you do not take care of it you will not be able to keep it. A few days ago Sir informed me that it was time for our power exchange, it was early and I was tired. I told him no, and informed him that I would be keeping my power that day. He sat straight up and asked “do you know what you are saying to me?” It was in that very moment that I realized how far I had gone away from what we know we need. It’s tried and true and it works! I know that there is no going back for us. We need D/s. It has worked miracles in our marriage and we are both better people because of it. He gave me what I needed and promised to be more vigilant as a DOM. We both recognized that things were a little off track, but even a little off track is miles and miles from home. It feels so good to be back home
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