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Piecing it all together
The journey to our 24/7 D/s life has been a long road BUT so worth the wait to know we are doing it right for us. For as long as i can remember i have craved to be submissive. i crave a Dominate to control me in area’s of my life outside of work. For years i would block theses feelings, not understanding them fulling, assuming i was odd for craving a spanking. Outside of my marriage i have always been in control, a leader and hard working women. BUT something inside me was missing and a longing to be “controlled” in the bedroom, of myself, basically of my personal world. When i was younger i tried to have my first husband explore these feelings with me. He was not comfortable and laughed them off. Again i blocked the feelings assuming i must be odd–after all who in the world would get comfort from someone else controlling you. i do!!! i crave it!! i need it!! Amen this marriage ended 🙂 Five years ago i met Sir (my husband). From the get go i knew he was Dominate. As we got to know each other this became more apparent 🙂 It felt so good to finally share these feeling with someone who was understanding. Sir has had several D/s relationships in the past. All were “play/bedroom” relationships. Sir is very experienced, understanding and knowledgeable as to why I felt this way. He encouraged me to learn more and explore these feelings openly. Together like most we started in the bedroom. Like everyone our lives are busy but we liked to make time for play as much as possible while living with 2 teenagers. About 8-10 months ago Sir noticed some changes in me. i was edgy, not focused at home, not taking care of myself and seemed lost. I was masturbating constantly to relax and not focusing on Sir’s needs. He noticed that for days after D/s play time together i seemed 100% calm, attentive and focused. So he approached me and suggested i take some time to research becoming a full submissive wife–i cried. i was simple blown away how much he could read me. Sir sees the potential i could have but said this had to be something i understood 100%. i got to work researching submissive wife, reading books, reading contracts and learning all i could. But again life gets in our way. Work got busy, our business was booming and Sir was away for work often. In January Sir sat me down and we agreed it was time to put our notes into place. Over the last few months we have been working towards 24/7, designing a contract, discussing limits, setting goals and daily routines. Finding this site has been a godsend!!! i have read and read and read the forums and blogs. Like a light bulb everything started to click, titles came together and BAM!! It’s all come together. i submitted a contract to Sir for approval, submitted a daily routine schedule, toys are bought–per our agreement and i am planning a formal acceptance for saturday night 🙂 🙂 🙂 This really is a dream come true for me. i have wanted this for so long and for the first time in so long i am starting to feel ‘centered’ . We both understand this will be a process, mindset change, adjustments will be made as we grow and develop our roles together. i hope this was OK to share with everyone!! i am so excited and can’t thank all of you who have shared your stories–they each have been helpful!! i am beyond grateful for this subbie community!!
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Congratulations, Ghost! How has your first month as a 24/7 D/s-M been for you?
Hope to meet you in the Warren soon.
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Ghost,
I would love to hear how everything is going for you and your HusDom
RHS ( RedHairedSub)
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